I have been dreaming of writing this post since January 2009, and I am actually writing it on June 30, 2009 and storing it in my drafts folder until I can officially post it.  I need to do this to remind myself that it is coming and I will not always be a cancer patient.  I will fill in the details later, but the fact is that I know this post is coming.

May 4, 2011 – The day has finally come to publish this entry.  This morning, my doctor opened the door to the exam room where Angela and I were waiting and before she was even all the way in the room she raised up a handful of papers and said, “I’ll cut right to the chase, it’s all good news.”  I am truly a cancer survivor.

My tumor has continued to shrink and display less and less uptake activity indicating that since the stem cell transplant, 8 months ago, there has been absolutely no growth or advancement of cancer anywhere in my body and the mass of cells that once dominated the space behind my sternum is continuing to shrink and fade away.

Naturally, I am relieved and happy.  I am most happy for my family because they all deserve to live a normal life.  We have been so shaped and guided the past two years by the necessity to take care of MY needs, that I am grateful to finally and officially arrive in a place where it is not ALL about me.  That was a lot of pressure for someone who does not like or need, lots of attention.

We hugged, we laughed a little and then we  agreed to meet again in 6 months for another follow up PET Scan.  That will be a part of what I do from now on, or probably at least until I get 5 years out past the transplant.   I commented to Angela as we walked down the front corridor at Winship Cancer Institute, “This is the first time I’ve walked out of here smiling.”

Ever the prepared planner, Angela pulled the car off into a little park area shortly after we got off the hospital grounds and told me to get out of the car.  From the back of the car, she produced a little split of champagne and two flutes.  We hugged again and toasted the outcome that we have known would come.  This is a great day.

As I mentioned at the top of this entry, I created this post, titled, “Remission” way back in June 2009.  It was at the point where I had reached the end of what was supposed to be my first 12 doses of chemotherapy, but at the last week or two, found out that my doctor wanted to do four more infusions of ABVD chemotherapy because my Hodgkin’s Lymphoma was not going away.  I was depressed at the thought of more chemo, and needed to affirm in my mind that there was a reason and a goal behind all the misery.   I never published it of course because I never achieved the elusive state of remission until now.  But from time to time, I did re-visit the post, deep down in the chronological list of blog entries and added a few thoughts to it.  Those thoughts are below.  For now, I am taking the rest of the day off!


December 2, 2010 – 90 days have passed since the transplant. That means I am halfway to the point where I am supposed to be able to do all the things normal people can do…although I feel that I can do a lot of those things now. These three months have not been the cloistered miserable lockdown period I had been expecting, but they have not been easy. Yes, I have been able to get back to work. Yes, I look like a normal person (with very very short hair). But I have been plagued by a mystery lung affliction for nearly two months. Hopefully that is coming to an end. Two weeks from today I will get my PET scan to determine if the transplant worked. It had to. I cannot put my family through this again.

June 28, 2010 – Today is my Dad’s birthday, and it was nice to be able to celebrate with him for the second year in a row.  It was also my day to meet with Dr. Langston to go over my evaluation tests from last week.  Even though the PET scan showed that the tumor has reduced in size, she was not pleased with the size of the reduction.  She had been hoping for a more dramatic change in size than the 1 cm reduction that actualized.  Once again, this is another checkpoint that has delivered less than ideal results.  I am still focused on the end result and determined to win, but it is frustrating getting bad news.  I felt the need to check in on this post and remind myself that remission is coming and I will get there.

May 12, 2010 – Going to have to wait on this one. My cancer is back.

8 thoughts on “Remission

  1. Michelle says:

    Been checking your post all day!! We are so happy for you! This has been a long & horrible road, but you have made it with such dignity, humor & inspiration to all who love you. I know that this has been tough for the family, but you guys are a strong family that will now have time to enjoy the next phase life brings. Wish we were there for a glass…no bottle of champagne to share in this awesome news!

    Jeremiah 29:11-For I know the plans for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope & a future.

    Your future is here! Congrats Dan! We love you!

  2. CARLA CAMP says:



    You will all continue to remain in my/our prayers.
    Carla Camp

  3. Adriana and Randy says:

    Thank God! We are so, so happy and relieved. You did it!! Now GO and enjoy today and every day with your family.

    A huge hug to you,
    Adriana and Randy

  4. Megan says:

    That is such great news Dan! I am so happy for you and I know so many prayers have been answered! What incredible news!!! – I am sure you and Angela will celebrate!

  5. Sarah Andresen says:

    Such great news!! Congratulations! Thinking of you and your family during this celebratory time!

  6. Adele says:

    I am sooooooo happy for you. REMISSION is such a big word and believe me I know how happy you feel. I heard that word from my sons doctor as well. My son was 12 with Hodgkins and is now almost 14 and in REMISSION, what a great feeling. It will be 1 year in remission in June 2011. Never give up praying as god will always answer your prayers.

  7. Jacinta says:

    Fantastic news Dan. I check your website every now and then, to read your words of wisdom… always hoping for some good news. This is just wonderful. Onwards and upwards.

  8. Kevin Priger says:

    Realizing it had been about a month since I last looked at your blog, I visited it again today. And PRAISE GOD I saw your post. This is awesome to read.

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